A Mama’s Confession

Rebecca is 8 weeks old today. Two months in this world, and she has a knick on her finger to remember it by.

Jerod suggested we trim Becca’s nails for the first time, since they’ve been slowly turning into claws. I pulled out the adult clippers, way too confident in my eyesight and clipping abilities. In the back of my mind, I could hear my mom saying, “The first time I cut your nails, I accidentally cut your finger and we both cried.”

That won’t happen to me, I thought. Famous last thoughts …

My mama heart magnified everything that happened next. The speck of blood on her fingertip became a rushing river. Her heart was literally breaking in half. Her mouth was a chasm of pain, out of which charged screams that could be heard around the world.

All of these things, of course, are hyperbole. But my heart was breaking for my baby, and out of that came my perception. I hated that I was the source of her pain, however unintentional.

Rebecca’s tiny finger is now clean and bandaged, but I’ve never felt so incompetent to treat an injury in my life.

Living in a broken world sucks.

It means my daughter feels pain. It means she will feel sadness and her heart will be broken sometimes and she’ll know what tears feel like. She’ll get bumps, bruises, scrapes, and breaks.

As imperfect people, we will hurt each other. I wish I could save her from this reality. But in the long run, that wouldn’t help her grow. She won’t learn if I shelter her from everything that is a tic less than happy. And the mistakes I make will help me grow to learn to be a better mama to her.

And that’s where grace is so key. “A gift given we don’t deserve.” Even in our deepest failings, grace is there to cover the gap created by our brokenness. I can’t wait for my daughter to understand the gravity of this great gift.

Rebecca’s poor little finger is still knicked, and my heart is still pricked with guilt. But the Lord’s mercies “are new every morning,” and that makes my mama’s heart rest a little easier tonight.

Top 5 kitchen picks for wedding registries

You know that feeling of “everyone I know is getting married?” I went through that phase a few years ago, around the time I was preparing to get married. Most of my friends were either engaged or recently married, as well. It’s a weird feeling when everyone gets hitched in one fell swoop.

Between then and now, there was been a lull in the wedding department. The “everyone is having babies” feeling took over for a bit, and then I turned into one of those people (side note: we’re having a girl!).

But recently, the wedding cycle has picked up again. Right now I’m invited to 4 weddings in 2016 (1 in the spring and 3 in the fall). This uptick has caused me to think back on the excitement of planning my wedding, registering for gifts, and the crazy joy of knowing my life was changing in a huge way.

Let’s be honest: Wedding registries are a blessing and a curse. There’s some cool gadgets out there, but it’s hard to know which ones are worth a spot on your list. Some of them (I’m looking at you, “As Seen on TV”) will stay in the box until you decide to donate them on your one-year anniversary. I know because I’ve been there. The Union Gospel Mission Thrift Store got 2 large garbage bags of kitchen things ALONE, along with old clothes and other things I spring cleaned.

Your friends and family want to bless you by gifting things that you will use. Make the most of their time and money by picking essentials that will last a while.

Here are my top 5 kitchen gadget picks — in no particular order and based on personal experience — for your wedding registry:

Ninja Blender System



This solves most of my kitchen issues. There’s smoothie cups with sip and seal lids (for personal smoothies and juices), a blender (for larger smoothie quantities, and whatever else you would use a blender for), and a processor bowl (it slices, dices, and has a separate blade for mixing dough! What?!). This system eliminates the need to register for a blender, a food processor, and a smoothie maker separately.

Coffee maker


Hamilton Beach 2-way Coffee Maker

I mean, this one should be obvious if you’re addicted to caffeine. Unless you’re a total coffee snob (French press/cold press/espresso shots/etc.), you really don’t need much more than a standard cup o’ joe contraption. This one is cool because it has 2 options: single-serve and a full carafe, so you can make a quick cup in the morning and brew a pot for guests in the evening.

A good cutlery set


Ginsu cutlery set

We made the mistake of registering for a cheap knife set, thinking that sharp was sharp and there wasn’t a difference between cheap knives and expensive knives.

Oh silly, silly us.

We recently replaced our cheap cutlery set (which barely made it past the 1-year mark without rust stains) with a set of Ginsu knives, and they are glorious. Good knives will treat you well (and save you money) in the long run.

KitchenAid mixer


KitchenAid tilt stand mixer

There’s a reason why the KitchenAid hasn’t gone out of style through the years. This solves all your mixing needs, especially for recipes that require a little more hands-on TLC (as opposed to using the Ninja processor). Plus, it comes in a plethora of colors, so it fits every kitchen color scheme.



Crock-Pot Cook ‘N’ Carry 6-Quart Portable Slow Cooker

This is the most valuable asset in my kitchen. You can make just about anything in a Crock-Pot, from candied nuts to a full dinner. This model has a secure fit sealed lid, so you can transport your food to the church potluck (or wherever) without worrying about it sloshing everywhere. For extra portability, get the insulated Crock-Pot Travel Bag. It has sturdy handles and keeps the heat contained.

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